1st Dream

7/31/2020: First Dream

7:30 am: I don’t remember my dreams often, but I just woke from a very vivid one that Marilyn and Carol were both in.

It was a Hallmark movie setting. Carol and I were opening a trendy 4 story retail building in an area that looked like the London setting for Last Christmas.  We were busy getting details ironed out for the “big opening” when someone brought me word that Marilyn had just come out of her coma. It went from a Hallmark movie to a Lifetime movie really quickly.

The rest is getting foggy now as I write this, I was panicking, first with what to do. I went to see Marilyn, but she was hurt that I had found someone else. Then I went looking for Carol who was hurt that I left her to go check on Marilyn. Somehow a vacuum cleaner was involved.  I felt the script in this was painting me to be the cad.

The setting– perky, bustling, upbeat– I don’t know, it reminded me of both of them. But the anguish both of them were in whenever I tried to talk to either of them, I don’t know. It felt like the hell I’ve been in, not able to please anyone, not able to have either one.

I don’t usually remember dreams, and I don’t want to anymore.